THIS IS HOW I FEEL

Christmas is over and I've got the flu.I always get that post Christmas let-down every year,any way.Having the flu just exaggerates the blues.
All the stress,all the excitement,the parties,the guests and the huge amount of cooking,all done for another year.
Another stress is gift buying and giving.I get so upset if the gift does not go over well with the recipient.You want to see big,happy smiles on all their faces.
I've never been able to accept,that I can't make everyone happy.It's my job to make everyone happy.The job's getting bigger as the family expands and I'm not getting any younger.
I've always felt,that you shouldn't have kids,if you can't make them happy.
Who needs more miserable people in the world?Do we want the miserable people running the world?NO!We want happy people running the world,making happy decisions.Then war will become obsolete. And,that's my simplistic,if somewhat unrealistic,view.
Taking down the decorations and denuding the tree make me sad.It marks the end of the year for me.Year's end is sad,like the death of a friend.Although there are a few years I'd like to forget about altogether.
I've never really understood the celebration of the new year.The only interpretation I can put on it,is that we are pinning all our hopes on the new year and trying to coax it into a good and favorable mood by singing,dancing and boozing.It just seems a little paganistic(if that's a word).

Well this introspection is not cheering me up.I think I'll go take a cold tablet and blow my nose.'Happy whatever'.