Saturday, December 13, 2008

MY ROCK--2


I ran to the front doors of the clinic.They were locked.A sign on the door said,"Clinic closes at eight o'clock."I pounded on those doors in an absolute frenzy of fear.What kind of hospital closes at eight?No one got sick after eight?
Oh,Brian,why did this have to happen out here,the middle of nowhere,in a tiny,little one cow village?
Finally,a face loomed out of the dark corridor,"Sorry we're closed."
"Open this fucking door!My husband is in there!"
"Oh,you must be the wife."Brilliant.
The door opened,and a nurse conducted me to a waiting area."The doctor is with him,dear,you have to wait here."
"Is it a heart attack?"
"The doctor will explain in a minute."An hour went by.The doctor came out of the exam room/operating room.He was young and looked full of self importance.
"Your husband is having a heart attack."Master of the obvious.
"There are three levels of myocardial infarction,mild,moderately serious and catastrophic.The survival rate for catastrophic is low."He gave me a number.
"Why are you telling me this?"I already knew.
"He is having the catastrophic kind.We're doing all we can,but you should be prepared.We are giving him a powerful drug to try and break up the clot of plaque,we believe is blocking the blood flow in the main artery of his heart."
"I've been speaking to a heart specialist on the phone,and we feel this is the best course of action at the moment."
"Is it working,Doctor?"
"Not yet.I must get back to him."Thirty minutes went by,during which,I called our son Steve and asked him to tell other family members.I told him it was very grave and perhaps he should be there.I went to look through the round window of the O.R. I saw,a white as death man,with sunken looking eyes and a drawn face, I didn't recognize,lying on a gurney."Come in," the doctor called.
I went in and held Brian's hand."I have just administered a second dose.The specialist recommended it."
It obviously wasn't working.Where was this specialist?They didn't have major surgical facilities here.Why didn't they take him to a big hospital?The doctor seemed to read my mind.He took me aside.
"If we move him,we'll probably lose him."Another thirty minutes passes and a nurse makes me sit outside again.She brings me a cup of tea and hugs me .She thinks he's going to die.Another nurse hugs me.They all think he's going to die.
Suddenly,there was a flurry of activity and noises in the O.R.I ran to the window.The doctor and nurse were working over Brian frantically.They were trying to revive him.I guess they did bring him back again.The next thing I saw and heard was the doctor on the phone to the heart specialist.He was saying they should take Brian to the big university hospital in a nearby city.There was nothing to lose."We're were going to lose him,anyway."
"Oh God,oh God,oh God,no."
The city was about thirty minutes away.It had a well known teaching hospital and had a very,well known and respected heart wing.The head heart surgeon there,was famous for creating a crack surgical team,that was always on call for emergencies and could be there,scrubbed and ready to operate within forty minutes.
The doctor came and told me he had sent for the ambulance and they were leaving immediately.He also told me,he didn't think Brian would make it.....To be continued.

8 comments:

  1. That's tough. I can understand that it is hard to write it down. Kudos that you did it anyway.

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  2. Thankyou.In the comment I left on your blog I likened it to giving birth.

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  3. Sorry Jeannie, no comment found....

    ....anyway,sometimes life gives us a lot to deal with, right.
    I have never been in a situation like that so I have no way of knowing how I would have reacted or if I would have reacted differently.

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  4. Anonymous9:30:00 AM

    Thank you for sharing..I also realize how hard it is to relive the most horrified time of your life..Brian is not finish with his work here..for you to be there by yourself..Jeannie you are a very strong lady..not just strengh..but you have a strong faith..I beat when Brian got tangle in the bushes,you had a little secret smile on your face...it's not all about doing the nasty..when you cuddle up with Brian..he just hold you..you get all tinglely inside,now thats what it's all about...sweetie I applaud you and send much love..my lites are up also....Nee

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  5. Anonymous2:55:00 PM

    It seems easier to open up now,than it did a year ago.Time gives you distance from the pain,I guess.
    It's also easier to write it,than tell it face to face.The sympathy in someone's eyes would reduce me
    to tears.

    Untangling Christmas lights and replacing bulbs always makes Brian swear.Truthfully,it is funny.
    He says,"I'm standing out here freezing my arse off to please the neighbors.We can't see these lights from inside the house."(Bah,Humbug!)

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  6. You know, he has a point. I mean, WHY do most of the people really put up all that humdrum (lights etc?) .To show off to the neighbours.
    My home is par of any hint od Christmas. I'll get a tiny pre-designed tree one day before the event. But thats it. No use wasting money on ornaments and things one only uses for a few days a year? I don't see a legit reason for this "light-madness" some people (not you Jeannie) develop. There is a house in Germany that has 50.000 Christmas lights in an around the house. Their power-bill for December is higher than all than for all 11 months combined.

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  7. Anonymous6:31:00 PM

    (Not you Jeannie) Vixen I also love putting up my lignts..Some people do some people,but don't try to find fault with the ones that do.

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  8. I don't. It was just an observation.

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