What Happened to My Knight in Shining Armor?

Where did he go?My hero,the guy who would slay dragons for me,who promised to take care of me forever,who adored me,lusted after me,is conspicuously absent these days.He seems more like a business partner now.We discuss mutually important things,like finances and children and of course health issues,since he had a catastrophic heart attack.We make all decisions together,very democratically.

Of course,I know he cares for me,as I care for him,but we used to make each other laugh so much.We used to have our own language,little signals,we both understood.We looked forward to coming home ,just to see each other.We touched more and held each other more,not necessarily in a sexual way.Although,an innocent touch would often turn to passion.It was wonderful that my closest friend and companion was also the man who could turn me on just by smiling and winking at me.I could make him hot for me by raising an eyebrow.I used to call him 'Mr Eveready',because he was.Even our friends called him by that nickname.

Okay,I know we're older.Those hot sexy feelings get diluted,and maybe we 've started taking each other for granted.We have the added problem of his heart condition.It's the closeness,I'm not feeling lately.Where's the closeness and the love?I've also noticed that my husband is touchy and easier to annoy than he used to be.Is it possible that I'm more persnickedy too?Where is this going?I don't know.

All I know,is that if your relationship is an old one,you run the risk of neglecting it,thinking it will always be there.You think it won't change,but like anything else that needs nourishment,it can starve to death.I'm not about to let that happen.I'm starting a campaign to bring back the closeness.

My 'Knight in Shining Armor'may never come back,but I'll settle for the court jester,as long as we think the world of each other.