"I have the gift to speak in the tongue of angels," he wrote to a pen pal from prison. "People tend to believe a person is out of his mind to speak like that but this was all kept hidden for protecting man's future development."
In a rambling, handwritten message that is scattered with references to his faith, Garrido said that he wants to help other sex offenders "have the same freedom I have."
He wrote: "I am so sorry for the pain I have caused everyone. I hope you can forgive."
The note obtained by the Daily Mirror is the latest glimpse into the mental state of Garrido, who is awaiting trial with his wife Nancy for abducting Miss Dugard from a bus stop in 1991 when she was just 11 and holding her captive for18 years in their backyard. Both have pleaded not guilty.
In another letter made public earlier this month he claimed that his faith had helped him restrain his sexual impulses. "Through the spirit of Christ a mental process took place ending a sexual problem believed to be impossible," he wrote.
Miss Dugard was reunited with her family on Aug 27 after Garrido's parole officer raised the alarm.
"I didn't know she was being kept there against her will. I was in my bed and all I knew was this smiley girl who came to see me," Mrs Garrido said. "She always seemed happy to be there. I thought she was my granddaughter. I don't know what's happened to her now but I love her. I hope she's OK."
"I don't remember how her two little girls came to be there but I thought they were Phillip's. He told me they were all his children," Mrs Garrido said.
Patricia Garrido said she saw nothing unusual about Dugard and then the girls living outside the house, saying she grew up on a farm and "was used to there being a lot of noise and spending a lot of time outside".
She defended her daughter-in-law, saying Nancy looked after her for two decades, bathing and feeding her.
"Nancy has a heart of gold and everyone seemed happy. Allissa was a very happy girl. I still call her Allissa because he never told me she was called Jaycee. I just didn't think there was anything wrong with it," Mrs Garrido said.
"They were all lovely girls. I just thought they were my family. I had no idea why he would do something like this. I don't know what's wrong with him but he has made the family very sad," she said.
Phillip Garrido selected the pretty blond girl with the gap-toothed grin as his prey during a “child shopping” trip because she looked “cute” , his wife Nancy has told investigators in California. But the couple decided not to try and snatch 11-year-old Jaycee Dugard that day in June 1991 because she was walking through South Lake Tahoe with a bunch of school friends.
Instead, they apparently trailed her to her home before returning the next morning to complete their horrific mission. Mrs Garrido allegedly jumped out of their car and grabbed her as she walked to nearby a bus-stop, while her husband remained behind the wheel.
She has described the chilling precision that went into the abduction as prosecutors put together the case for multiple charge of kidnapping and rape against the husband and wife. “That’s the one I want,” Garrido told her when he saw Jaycee in the resort town. “She’s cute, but she’s with the other kids. Let's come back later and get her.”
Michael Cardoza, a Californian attorney and former prosecutor, relayed his coldly calculating words to The Sunday Telegraph after being briefed on Mrs Garrido’s testimony by law enforcement contacts. Another source close to the investigation has confirmed that was her account.
“This was nothing less than a child shopping trip,” said Mr Cardoza. “It just makes their actions all the more horrendous and reprehensible.”
The disturbing revelation will further fuel the anguished debate in California about the state’s child protection laws, which effectively encourages scores of former sex offenders to congregate in neighbourhoods - like the outskirts of Antioch - where there is little local government and not much sense of community. It will also add to the frustration across America that so many people who interacted with the Garridos - including police, public officials and close neighbours - failed to grasp what was going on.
Mrs Garrido’s version of how Jaycee was snatched throws an even more sickening light on the advice her husband dispensed a decade later to a child safety campaigner for whom he was printing a kidnap prevention fact sheet. “Phillip offered a couple of suggestions if we were updating the leaflet,” Janice Gomes told The Sunday Telegraph.
“He said: 'Children should never walk to a bus-stop by themselves. They are no match for an adult so there should always be an adult with them,’” she recalled.
Garrido also dismissed the theory of “safety in numbers” for a group of unaccompanied children, telling her that a determined attacker could always pick off one of the bunch as the others fled.
“It just seemed like sensible advice that children should always be in the company of an adult, even if you think they are safe,” said Mrs Gomes, who set up the National Community Empowerment Programme after one of her young daughters was molested three decades ago.
Yet despite his weird personality, a tendency to burst into song and outlandish religious beliefs, it never struck her that the man known as “creepy Phil” by youngsters in the area might have been speaking with such horrifying personal knowledge about the dangers faced by lone children at bus-stops.
And Garrido, now 58, was printing the flyers from the business he ran in the same backyard lair that was home to Jaycee - and by then the two daughters he allegedly fathered after repeated rapes - in Antioch, 45 miles east of San Francisco.
What is known about Nancy Garrido points to an existence of extreme contradictions. For Mrs Garrido worked as a respected nursing aide caring for the disabled and the old at the same time as she helped her husband keep Jaycee and her two daughters captive in their backyard.
Indeed, investigators believe that her nursing expertise allowed her to play the role of midwife when those children, now aged 11 and 15, were born during the 1990s. Her impressive collection of nursing references dated back to 1981 - the same year that she married Garrido in a prison ceremony, well aware that her new husband was serving a then 50-year sentence for rape and kidnapping.
She was born Nancy Bocanegra in Bexar County, Texas, in 1955, the oldest of several children in a Mexican-American family that moved to Denver, Colorado, in 1972. Some time after Garrido’s 1977 incarceration at Leavenworth federal penitentiary in Kansas, she met him while she was visiting an uncle who was a fellow inmate.
She was reportedly an impressionable Jehovah’s Witness who fell for the handsome young prisoner - who was already claiming that he had found God and put the drug-fuelled sex and violence of his youth behind him. They married when she was 26 and he was 30.
Mrs Garrido moved from Denver to Leavenworth in the mid-1980s to be nearer her husband, renting cheap one-bedroom apartments in converted townhouses. And she was already supporting herself by working as a nurse, judging from the CV she later presented. After Garrido’s release, the couple moved in with his mother and step-father on Walnut Avenue, in a scruffy working-class neighbourhood of Antioch.
For the next 10 years, Mrs Garrido worked with disabled patients as a nursing and physical therapy aide in the area - even as Jaycee and later her girls were forced to live in a squalid network of tents and shacks in a compound hidden from neighbours by trees and high fences.
For 38 days in 1993, she was Jaycee’s sole jailer after Garrido was locked up for breaking his parole by smoking marijuana. Yet even then, she made no effort to alert the authorities - seen as crucial evidence by the prosecution that while she may have had a domineering husband, she was actively complicit in the whole operation.
This double life has amazed her former colleagues at the ARC nursing agency which took her on in 1994 after she passed a state background check. “The people who received services through her, they liked her very much. She was a good employee and she was well-liked by the people she worked with,” Barbara Maizie, the agency’s executive director, told a local newspaper. “They cannot believe that this is possible. They’re totally shocked.”
Her family in Denver - her divorced parents and at least four brothers still live there - were just as stunned when her role emerged. In the first comments by a relative, her brother David blamed Garrido for his sister’s plight as he recalled a young woman who would go fishing and canoeing.
“I’ve got nothing bad to say about my sister,” he said. “He [Garrido] turned her into that. She was normal until she hooked up with that guy.”
His sister left the ARC agency in 1998 to look after her elderly bed-ridden mother-in-law - a role she carried out with diligence and care, according to next-door neighbour Helen Boyer. “Nancy was great with Pat [Garrido’s mother],” she said. “She devoted herself to that woman.”
She was always unassuming but also became increasingly reclusive. “The wife was like a hermit,” said Damon Robinson, another neighbour. “She looked like she had no spirit.”
Prosecutors believe she was a full partner in the kidnapping and rapes and will demand multiple life sentences against both Garridos, who pleaded not guilty in their first court hearing.
Gilbert Maines, her court-appointed attorney, appears to be preparing to argue that she was brainwashed, in thrall to her husband’s personality and religious beliefs, as some acquaintances and family members have claimed. But legal experts emphasise that even if he did hold a domineering sway over her - and he of course claimed to be able control minds and hear angels through a special black box- that would be little defence in court.
Mr Maines added that his client came to view Jaycee and the girls as “family”. He said: “She loved the girls very much and she loved Jaycee very much.” Miss Dugard has also reportedly told them she formed a “bond” with the couple who stole her away.
She worked in Garrido’s printing business, oversaw graphic designs and met clients. Former clients say she looked just like a happy young woman, even an aspiring model. That she could have appeared so contented is another mystifying twist to a near-inexplicable story.
The Jaycee Lee Dugard story is apparently for sale and the Hollywood rumor mill is pointing to Lindsay Lohan as the main actress interested in picking up the story. The fallen Hollywood starlet is said to be feverishly negotiating for the film rights to the life story of Dugard. .
Hollywood insiders are claiming that Lohan believes she has a strong resemblance to Dugard, we don’t see it at all. It will be interesting to see if Lohan can turn her trainwreck of a career around with what will promise to be a serious and uncomfortable role.
Looks like the Garrido's are digging their grave all by themselves. Peole are not going to fall for the crap nancy is spitting out her pie-hole,the things she says lets you know she is as guilty as Phillip.
ReplyDeleteYou can throw a rock through a window and not expect it to break. Nancy knew what Phillip was and enjoyed the thrill of knowing Phillip was raping Jaycee, that may have been the way she got her jollies.
WHAT!!! Someone had the nerve to say Nancy was normal? They better have that fool checked out real fast.
Lindsey Lohan playing Jaycee, don't see it, the only talent Lohan has is taking her friends things without their knowledge.
Good post...Pic, really enjoyed the up-date.
I made my resolution to be more patient and kinder.
ReplyDeleteBunch of shit on TV>
Yes it is, I think I'm watching paranormal state on a&e, maybe itwill get better next year.
ReplyDeleteKennedy Honors go to Bruce Springsteen tonight.
ReplyDeleteI will try to keep my cool, it's hard, but I'm getting better.
ReplyDeleteI like Bruce the Man, what station?
ReplyDeleteKennedy honors also to Sting Melissa Ethridge and a few other artists.Not a bad show.
ReplyDeleteI enjoyed this post...the Garridos needs to be locked up in a loony bin, talking to a black box,Nancy wants people to think she was brain-washed, now that's a bushel basket full of shit.
ReplyDeleteI think it's on CBS
ReplyDeleteI wonder if they will honor MJ posthumously.
ReplyDeleteNancy will say anything now to save her hide.
ReplyDeleteHer case will rest on the fact that she was frightened of Phil,maybe scared for her life.
ReplyDeleteI like them, maybe we will get some good programs next year. I have watched Discovery/history channels lately.
ReplyDeleteHave you found the show yet?The performances are very good.
ReplyDeleteEven the president is tapping his toes.
ReplyDeleteI got it...If they honor MJ wonder wish bro. will come forward.
ReplyDeleteMelissa Etheridge is performing a Bruce song.
ReplyDeleteI was wrong ,only the 'Boss' is being honored.The others are just performing his songs.
I hear Obama can really get down and really get to jiving, if he can dance well I would love to dance with him.
ReplyDeleteI've always loved Bruce.I have all his work,but most of it is on cassettes.I can transfer it to discs on my computer but it will take forever.
ReplyDeleteI love good music and now there's Sting.He makes it look so easy.
ReplyDeleteThere are a lot of stars in the audience
ReplyDelete"Boss" do a lot of charity work, I heard he and Noah Wyle is going to work on a project for the Polar Bears, don't know when.
ReplyDeleteI guess Bruce will make a little speech.
ReplyDeleteBoss is well liked, I have a few of his works.
ReplyDeleteI didn't know he was involved in the polar bears.That's great.What a marvelous spokesman to have.
ReplyDeleteWell the news is on now
ReplyDeleteNoah be on TV a lot talking about the bears .
ReplyDeleteI seen an article about 3/4 weeks ago about Bruce, but I'm on the lookout for anything about him.
Getting back to Nancy.She was attracted to Phil when he was in prison for kidnap and rape.She was attracted to the fact that he was dangerous.At the time she thought he was in for 50 years.Boy did she get a surprise when he was sprung all of a sudden.
ReplyDeleteNow she had to live with him.It was more fun having a dangerous husband when he was locked up.I think she was scared initially.
But she was still titillated by what he did and I think she was excited by it.
The show was to short,should be 2 hours long.
ReplyDeleteWas Bruce hair curly or was that a perm?
Did you like 'Happy New Year' by Abba?
ReplyDeleteIt's a really old song.1989 according to the lyrics.
I agree with you about Nancy, but it seems to me could have got away.
ReplyDeleteI still say she got her "jollies" knowing he raped Jaycee.
Bruce has always had curly hair.I don't know if it's natural but I would think so.
ReplyDeleteYes I liked it, I love good music and it's playing at the casino.
ReplyDeleteI always liked that big lower jaw that sticks out.Shows a lot of character.Bruce has never been handsome but he's always been sexy in a raw kind of way.
ReplyDeleteYou can always tell when you get that little twitch and tingle.
I was raised around all types of music, classical/blues/ jazz in that order .
ReplyDeleteI told Susan a long time ago that his hair was curley, I love raw sexy men, and I think he's quite nice looking.
ReplyDeleteBeauty is in the eye of the beholder...tingly feeling, on boy yes.
According to her statements,they were supposed to kidnap a little girl to be their daughter.
ReplyDeleteAfter they had her locked up for a month Phil raped her and Nancy was furious with him but was powerless to stop him.She got very jealous of Jaycee because Phil became obsessed with her.
Now you are making me horny and I have worked to hard today to wrestle with my man, if he wants some I will just lay there and grunt.
ReplyDeleteWhen the first baby was born,it's my guess tha Nancy was thrilled and probably took over most of it's care.
ReplyDeleteI think she's lying, Why would she want a kid 11 years old, Phil seen her and told her she's the one he wanted, she was with other kids,he told her they would come back later, she knew what he wanted and she is just trying to save her ass, she needs to shut her pie-hole. She did the crime now she should do the time. I think they should put a needle in their arms and save the tax-payers some money.
ReplyDeleteI just don't see how anyone can be so dumb. I know the mama is an old and sickly woman, but how could she believed thsoe was Phil's kids, maybe Jaycee, but not the 2 girls. I guess Nancy is just a weak person with a low self-esteem.
ReplyDeleteIf the Garrido's was on fire, I wouldn't piss on them to put it out. Look at their pictures and you can see the evil in his eyes.
ReplyDeleteThe two girls are Phil's kids and apparently they look like him.They have his eyes.He told his mama they were from different relationships that he had outside his marriage.In a way he didn't lie to his mama.She thought he was a really good man to take them in and raise them.
ReplyDeleteAccording to what I read he was very sweet to the two girls.He used to rock them to sleep and sing to them.They miss him so much they are having problems with that.He is their dad.
ReplyDeleteThey can't believe what they have been told.They are totally screwed up for life.
That man has a lot to answer for.
The death penalty would not be too harsh.
I think he comitted other rapes that he was not charged with.According to an old friend of Phil's,Phil told him that he had killed his girlfriend and their baby boy because he wanted only daughters.He hid their bodies in the hills in a national park.
ReplyDeleteI wonder when will we get a chance to see the girls?
ReplyDeleteDo you think Nancy had a hard life growing up, to make her so weak .
But the man is totally nuts so who knows what is true.
ReplyDeleteYou nailed it.Nancy is weak and spineless. But she did know what she was doing.She knows right from wrong.I don't think she is nuts.
ReplyDeleteShe doesn't have a leg to stand on.
They say love make strange bed fellows, my ex was bad enough.
ReplyDeleteHe didn't fight me, and tried to keep his affairs hid.
Apparently Nancy had a pretty good childhood.Her family is in shock over her arrest.
ReplyDeleteI wish there was a way to shield the girls from all the pain. Yes they will love him because he is their dad and was good to them, because they knew nothing else.
ReplyDeleteThey will never have a normal life I think he will always have some kind of hold over them, if he lives or dies.
If Nancy really wanted to get away from Phil,why didn't she ask her family for help. Don't they live in Colo. that's a far away from California.
ReplyDeleteYou see what I think about Lohan playing Jaycee in the movie, she can't act her way out of a paper bag.
ReplyDeleteI like bad boys....not crazy boys.
ReplyDeleteIn a way I think Nancy enjoyed her life even though Phil apparently dominated her. I don't know that she wanted to get away.She adored the two girls and jaycee.They had formed a family ( a very weird family,but it meant everything to them all)
ReplyDeleteJaycee and the girls have said that they had very happy times.
How do you judge a strange situation like this??
However you look at it and even though Phil has reformed,he has to pay for the bad,bad things he did.And of course he's as nutty as a fruit cake.He needs major therapy.
ReplyDeleteThe best solution is to lock him up and throw away the key.
That will break his daughters' hearts and Jaycee's.She considers herself his wife.
I don't know what's best for them, I guess they all love him in their own way. That's the same thing that happen to Patty Hearst.
ReplyDeleteIf you tell yourself something long enough, you will start to believe it yourself.
I hope she get enough money from the movie and have the best life she can.
Li-Lo is not the right character to play Jaycee.She has led a dissipated life.She's a drunk.Jaycee is an innocent.
ReplyDeleteLi-Lo could not give a convincing performance of innocent.
I haven't heard anything else about Jaycee's Bio dad.
ReplyDeleteI don't think I would go see the movie if Lohan was in it, I would just but the book.
ReplyDeleteBooks are always better.
The Bio dad is a real character too.What a movie this will make.
ReplyDeleteI hope it's not a made for movie TV.It should be a big box office movie with a great director.
How deep is your snow?
ReplyDeleteThey say we had some but if it melted before it hit the ground.
I mean a made for TV movie.
ReplyDeleteI mean a made for TV movie.
ReplyDeleteI think so too. If it's a made for TV so many people will miss it.
ReplyDeleteIt will be a great box office hit.
Maybe Oprah and Tyler Perry could produce it. That's right up Oprah's alley.
We had a couple of days of warmish rain and it melted a lot of the snow. The snowstorm that was supposed to hit us today has passed by us(PHEW!)close one.So the snow is only about a foot deep at the moment.
ReplyDelete[giggles] I know what you meant. Hahaha
ReplyDeleteBut the temperature is dropping tonight to 27 below freezing.So all that wet snow will freeze solid.Some fun on the roads.
ReplyDeleteIf it's this cold on the weekend I'm not getting on an innertube and sliding down a fucking hill.I will sit in the chalet sipping hot chocolate and wait for all the other fools to come inside.
ReplyDeleteI think I hear Maxy doing the RPE dance, is he twisting wanting to go out?
ReplyDeleteWE're going out to dinner on New Year's day with Dale and Barb.I'm looking forward to that more than tearing down a hill on a bouncy rubber tube.
ReplyDeleteWith the slopes so icy you could break something important.
ReplyDeleteHow about you? Are you doing anything fun on the weekend??
I know what you mean, you can see them out the window, if you and Brian go, please be careful.
ReplyDeleteThese fools here don't know how to drive in the snow. They just can drive in a thunder-storm or folood waters.
Yeah, I guess I better go.So,have a lovely sleep and don't do anything I wouldn't do...HA!...Goodnight
ReplyDeleteWe are going to have a hoe-down in the barn. Sis has a big building that was once a barn, we fixed it up and everyone bring a dish and drinks.
ReplyDeleteI know you will have fun with Barb and Dale....
ReplyDeleteSleep tight and I'll be back same place same time.
GOODNITE......PIC