"Consequences of Anger"

People sometimes hurt me,deliberately or not,in ways
I feel jusify my anger.But justified anger can be as harmful as unjustified anger.I can't do anything about other people and what they do,I can only change what I do.I can learn to release my anger.
I may not be able to avoid getting angry at times,but I can get past it and move on.When I can,I will forgive those I feel have wrong me.(not likely)I will accept that I have been wronged,but I will not wrong mysely by holding a grudge.I have some great stories to tell---and so do the people I want to tell them to.I will make room for them on the "stage" of our conversation.I will not just give them a glance and pretend that I am listening,in fact when I am not the least bit interested in what they are saying.
If someone I know have something to say,I'll listen,really listen,to hear what they are saying so I can know what is going on--not just dismiss it as if it is of no consequence to them...."that's just my world" I will contuine my saga" Jean`ne

Christmas Kids and Presents

This is the "Christmas" season,right..so much to do and not enough time,well I am trying my damnest to hold it together,as I said I have a 4 year old,a 2 month old,my man and his dad,boy I love dad,he is a great father-in law and babysitter...I were here last night talking to my partners in crime,girl stuff ,when all hell broke out,I said goodnight and off I go.
Let me give you a heads up..my man's dad wear dentures,ever night he pots them in their cup before retiring..but last night he wanted a snack,soooooo they weren't there..we looked ever ywhere,I thought oh my gosh,I don't want to look at two(2) gummy mouths,we all looked to no prevail. My man's little angel woke up wanting to know what we were looking for...Gil said papa's teeth,have you seen them.she looked at her daddy with a great big smile,went to the Xmas tree ,handed him a present she put there..lo and behold it was dad's teeth (giggles)Gil asked her why,she said she wanted Gilly to eat cake and gumbo for Xmas,mama said he could eat when he get teeth...we all had a good laugh. So I am learning things about my kids,they not onlysay,they also do the darnest things,so all you mothers out there hug your kids and tell them you love them,they are young for such a short time.

Kids Say The Darnest Things

A lot of movies is being filmed here.My man's firm represent the film companyies here,we asked his colleagues and their wives over to discuss the latest project on hand...the men went into the study to talk...the wives and I talked about our kids and what a joy they are,Gilly as usual had to show everyone how greedy he is.
The men's joined us ,everyone laughing ,enjoying themselves,Mary asked Gil what he was getting me for Xmas..Gil says he was going to give me a baby,maybe he could keep up with me.My darling little girl go to her daddy,hands on hips,saying no daddy no ,daddy you are so silly mama got Gilly,give mama a puppy,mama got two jugs and Gilly wants both of them.

FAMILY PART 4

Well ,getting close to the end,only good stuff.
Three weeks pass,you know I found out what he had.I kid you not,the man can make you say daddy,uncle,oh shit ,when he turn me loose ,I was well fucked.
You know you have been screwed good,when shivers run up and down your spine, my co-workers suspected something were going on,I talk to my man about it ,his was so what.Are you under age?
After the first of the year,all hotels and casinos,there are lay-offs,until business pick up around march,I did't want anyone to think I was screwing the boss's son to keep my job,fuck this job,I'm going to screw this long fucker.
I guess his dad got wind of our affair,he rides a motorized scooter,if Gil was on the floor,look out,about 5 minutes later,there was his dad.Gil leave,his dad still there,I told my older sister ,if I go missing,the old man put a hit out on me(giggles)Going to leave out all the small stuff,I will say ,we did a lot of screwing,within 5/6 weeks he asked me to marry him..I said no..remembering my ex...didn't want the same,I'll have fun while it last,oh he were very generous,he is very loving and giving,he asked 3/4 times a week to marry him. I say no,hell I were just scarced,really had no reason to be.
I lived along in a 3 bedroom apt. why so large,remember I have a very large family..2bdrms upstairs 1 downstairs,mine upstairs.
About 3/4 months into the relationship...family reunion time..this time in Little Rock,Ark. it were held Fri/Sun.
I asked Gil to look after my place,water my plants.
Listen up people, upon my returning home,I couldn't beleive my eyes.the man had move in and brought his dad with him,both were living in the hotel..I ask what was he going to do with dad..the old man were in bed watching t.v. damn he had his own t.v.,mine were upstairs.
My man said they have moved in.....with his baggage with him,so get use to it ,he were finished with sneaking around.
If I don't like it tough,he has never married,never ask or lived with anyone,when ,he saw the women he wanted to marry,he would know,oh he had a few choice words of advice for me.
If he ever have reason to think I am or have messed around,he would whip my ass and leave..no divorce..once is enough for him. I looked at that fool,he said oh yes,you can tell your brothers/sisters,don't give a shit,I am not afraid of them,but they better be very afraid of him,I belong to him,get use to it.
stay tuned to be cont.

FAMILY

I were born in New Orleans.La....the youngest of nine children,five boys/three girls,oldest is twins,boy /girl,youngest is a boy.
my younger brother is ten years older than I.....So you see I learned fast,I have two nieces two nephews around my age,boy were we bad,think about some of the things we got away with(giggles)
My father move the family here to Shreveport,La.when I were around eight old.I have had a very interesting life.
Daddy brought land with a house and a large barn,the twins Sis/Bo their families move there,daddy hired a builder to remodel the barn ynto a five bedroom home,four bedrooms up, his down.
We had a pond ,boy we loved to fish,we grew our own vegetables,fruit trees,so you know our place were full all times,and boy when watermelon time ,oh yes.
Had my share of boyfriends,but I had to marry to do the nasty,my brothers were on me like white
on rice,oh I am getting ahead of myself.....
See the reason we moved to North Louisiana,My mom and sis husband were killed in a car/train wreck,now I am back on track.
My ex. and I were high school sweethearts......married at twenty yrs. old,daddy said I was to young and bull headed,and my ex. wasn't mature enough,..and daddy were so right,we were very happy the first three years,went to Los Angeles,Ca . to get in the movie business,His career took off at full force,he had help to get him started,he is still doing well,I hear...I see his name in the tabiolds some time...doing the same old shit.
O.K enough for now.
to be contiune