The Rose

For JEANNIE - who is a friend, a kindred spirit and a great artist! Thank you, girl!

Persistence

There may be times when I feel like ignoring a crazy person..Everyone has these moments.Life is an adventure that gets the better of me sometime.
But I will keep on,because I have realize this crazy person has no life of her own,so we will do our damnest to keep her entertain..The more you rave and rant,the more will come to see what we are about,so I am thanking you in advance.....

Friends and Laughter

Friendships often are forged by laughter.Someone with the same sense of humor is likely to have some similarities we value.
We look forward to getting together with long time and new friends we have met along the way to enjoy a great roar and laughter.
We know each other well enough,have spent enough time together,to understand each other's sense of humor. The funny stories we share are those about ourselves and others that make a public fool of themselves....I will laugh today with the people I care about...It good therapy.What do you think?

Another Twist

beauty andugliness,really are in the eye of the beholder.we can dismiss things in our lives as flawed and ugly..Or we can choose to see them in a different lightthat reveals their strengh and beauty,If I am tempted to dismiss something,or someone,as not worth my time.I will give them a second look,from a different perspective.I may have found someone uninteresting because I was not asking the right questions......there is no right questions,when someone hides behind an illness,and wants called you names,and think you should not mind.....bullshit bi-polar this is war.

Just Me

Without humor,without the ability to make fun of others and ourselves and the situations we find ourselves in,the world would be a very bleak place.With a twist of irony we can turn the bad things that happen to us into amusing stories.And as we tell and retell these stories,we remind ourselves that we can bear almost anything life can throw at us.I will use my humor to get me through difficult times.
As one "BLOGGER" put it,to put her thoughts down,it is therapy for her,so why in hell she can't or won't see this might be therapy for me also, hell no this is just fun for me..so don't knock it.I am not hiding behind an illness,what you see here is what you get,I don't hide behind nothing,what you see is what you get....

The Love Of My Life

I said I wanted to share with you,the reason why I feel so blessed,I will try to put them in order,this is the first,boy I have a lot ,Gil say he don't mind.....Hear goes.

Good morning Jean`ne,baby I adore you!!You are the most amazing woman.You make me feelloved and worthy of love.I have missed much in life because I didn't have a companion.You are the companion I have wanted for so long.You are the woman I want to share my life's adventures with.You are a loving and supportive lover and friend to me.I want to help you carry life's burdens and lovingly encourage you as you stretch out to be all you can be.I love to lay next to you and feel the warmth of you body next to mine,yum yum,I love to share the intimacy of talking from the heart.I feel like I have had so much love to give,and it has been bottle up inside me for so long,no one has been interested in opening the bottle,but you,joyfully surrounded and enveloped in the love that flows from my heart.You inspire and fully embrace the romantic man inside me.
You are the woman that welcome me with a big warm smile,with your arms outstretched.You are the woman that loves and longs for my hugs.You look at me with eyes full of love,when I touch you and look into your beautiful eyes,you warmly welcomes my loving kiss.You sweetheart are the woman I long to love until the end of my days.
I love you my darling.....GIL p.s. marry me.
This was the first of many,I found it in my pantie draw(giggles)when I have a bad day I read a couple.

Once Upon A Time-The Thingy-A-Jiggy

Let me tell you how it all began,2 am at work in the casino,my job,I was supervisor of the table games...slow night,I let some of the dealers go home,their choice. A company out of "RENO" purchase our hotel and casino,we were told they were a family operations,most things would stay the same.
This bunch of guys were on the floor,looking like mafia..all different sizes,if you seen the Spranos you known what I mean..they was a good looking bunch, even the old and fat ones...they decided to play before the signing were complete.
This man asked me what my name,asked did I wear contacts,I said no,they were mine,he said nice,enough of that.
Now the good part.....the first time we did the nasty,he asked me to marry him,I said no,mind you I divorce my ex,I was afraid to trust a man with money,I was just going to enjoy the ride..my ex just wanted to do what he wanted,as long as I had money to buy things I should be happy and quite,no no no not this girl,all or nothing.
My man showered,dress,told me he be back later that day,it was my off day.He said I should listen at what he has to say..he said I will marry him..he will give me time,he wanted to explain something to me,I better listen,I could tell my brothers,hell he didn't care,he was not afraid of them,I was his now....he told me he was 45 years old,had never asked a lady to marry him,had never lived with a lady,He has done a lot of living,seen a lot of things,but he would know the lady he wanted to marry when he met her,he will be true to me and he expects the same,if I can't deal with it,tell him now,because he plays for keeps.
I talk with Sis,she said I should follow my heart,I married my man 3 years later,I was 3 months pregnant...so ladies don't ever think a man 10 or more years older is to old,mine still jump to attention when I call.....a lot of times he do the calling..(GIGGLES)
Sometime he just call to say he love me..this is my second go around, I have no regrets.

Honor The Child In You !

I would like to share a letter with you ....my man is very romantic,always leaving notes,cards in the most unsuspecting places, but here goes.

There is a little girl inside of you who never grew up.She has there from the beginning,She has seen,heard,experienced every aspect of life.She knows,she really knows who you are,and she never misses an opportunity to remind you.She knows your strengths,weakness,fears,likes,and dislikes.She knows who you are,what you can do;most of all, she knows when and how to act up.
Children will act up at the most inconvenient times.They will lose things.They will spill things on their clothes.They will speak out at inappropriate times.They will have temper tantrums.They will over eat.They fight,argue.They will make you late.All to get your attention.
Don't ignore your little girl.Make sure you greet her,nurture her,talk to her every day.Find ways to reassure her,make her feel safe.Let her know she is loved,welcome,valued.Let her play,and make sure she has plenty of toys.Don't forget to discipline her.Be firm but supportive,structured but flexible.Encourage her to try new things.Listen to her opinions.Make sure she eats well and get plenty of rest.You may be all grown up.However there is a little girl in you still trying to figure out who she is and what life is really about.Honor the child in you my love.
In the right moment,in the perfect way;you will be shown what to do,you will be told what to say,I will love you,I will honor you ...thank you for being the mother of my daughter,I will be home soon....GIL

Just Plain Folks

A quiet day at my house is few and far between.
Yesterday after speaking at the Civic Center to abused women from the shelter,Trying to give them a heads up and what /where to go/do,they don't have to be abused in no form or fashion,there are people out there that will help.We are A group of ladies that see the need for change,trying to make a different.Our club is named "THE LAWYERS WIVES" our motto is ,when all else fail,give us a try.
My niece were there to help with my son, My daughter was in preschool,thank goodness...Nan wanted to go by the casting office,just to see what was going on.Lo and Behold..Sylvester Stallone will star in and direct "THE EXPENDABLES" in Feb.2009,Nan signed up to be an extra,she belongs to our actors guild.but in that business it's not what you know it's who,but I think that goes for everything.
We are a city on the grow..for the better I hope.There have been quite a few well known celebrities here making movies or just visiting....
The movie Leaves of Grass just wrapped up..starring Edward Norton and Tim Blake Nelson....There was "Mad Money" starring Queen Latifah and Katie Holmes...yet to be released "Streets of Blood" starring Val Kilmer and Curtis "50 Cent"Jackson. Each one was very nice,Katie is on the quite side.Josh Bolin made "W" here,now that was a hoot,he and his crew got into it with others at the Stray Cat Bar.My favorite was Kevin Costner..A real nice person and such a gentleman..He really enjoyed himself...When he left,he told everyone he would return,to give back some of what he is taking away with him...
Ladies and gentleman's,he returned with his band,gave a concert, raised a lot of money,had his wife and baby with him,everyone had a great time.
They are just regular people like you and I,some with a little more class than others, you have to have an insight on how to handle fame and fortune.
But all in all ,I really think it's how you see others and yourself,you have to love,respect yourself first,the other will follow.
"Happiness is a state of mind,not a set of circumstances.I can--and will--choose to be happy today".

Freaking Bugs Me Out

There are so many,some more than others,right now it's my CITY and STATE government,some officials both city and state need to get their priorities in order.
You can't fix the problem by running off to Washington begging for more money,for the GM auto maker here to keep their head above water,we can't bail out the state,our Mayor vetoed the raise for the fire and police departments,those people is the backbone of the communities they serve,these brave men and women put their lives on the line each and every day,come on now ,the auto workers makes between $50/$90 an hour,maybe a cut in hourly pay will help in keeping more people on the job.
Senior citizens,needs more reliable health care ,be able to get food stamps,there are some couples receives about $14,000/$15,ooo a month,if they receive any help it was only $10/$20 a month,what can that but,a loaf of bread,quart of milk,dozen of eggs,what about the other 29 days..huh.
About 3 months ago,a 71 year old man was jailed for stealing a can chili.Someone mentioned it at my man's office ,he talked with the man,paid his fine ,got him help for him and his wife,they have no family just the two of them,we checks up on them regularly.
I get so pissed when people just talk,sit on there butts and do nothing.
The big 3 rescue stalls in "SENATE" hoop-dee-do,they don't want to give them a bond out of $25 million,if that don't bug the hell out of you nothing will.
Tel-markers bugs be to no end,always call at dinner time,tell them you don't have time ,they keep talking,if it's a machine I hang up,if a live person but brain dead ,I tell them off ,people that know me know it is not nice. My biggest pet peeve is a person that is a user of people.It don't take long to see through a person that's pretending to be something they are not. Me,what you see is what you get.

FAMILY PART 4

Well ,getting close to the end,only good stuff.
Three weeks pass,you know I found out what he had.I kid you not,the man can make you say daddy,uncle,oh shit ,when he turn me loose ,I was well fucked.
You know you have been screwed good,when shivers run up and down your spine, my co-workers suspected something were going on,I talk to my man about it ,his was so what.Are you under age?
After the first of the year,all hotels and casinos,there are lay-offs,until business pick up around march,I did't want anyone to think I was screwing the boss's son to keep my job,fuck this job,I'm going to screw this long fucker.
I guess his dad got wind of our affair,he rides a motorized scooter,if Gil was on the floor,look out,about 5 minutes later,there was his dad.Gil leave,his dad still there,I told my older sister ,if I go missing,the old man put a hit out on me(giggles)Going to leave out all the small stuff,I will say ,we did a lot of screwing,within 5/6 weeks he asked me to marry him..I said no..remembering my ex...didn't want the same,I'll have fun while it last,oh he were very generous,he is very loving and giving,he asked 3/4 times a week to marry him. I say no,hell I were just scarced,really had no reason to be.
I lived along in a 3 bedroom apt. why so large,remember I have a very large family..2bdrms upstairs 1 downstairs,mine upstairs.
About 3/4 months into the relationship...family reunion time..this time in Little Rock,Ark. it were held Fri/Sun.
I asked Gil to look after my place,water my plants.
Listen up people, upon my returning home,I couldn't beleive my eyes.the man had move in and brought his dad with him,both were living in the hotel..I ask what was he going to do with dad..the old man were in bed watching t.v. damn he had his own t.v.,mine were upstairs.
My man said they have moved in.....with his baggage with him,so get use to it ,he were finished with sneaking around.
If I don't like it tough,he has never married,never ask or lived with anyone,when ,he saw the women he wanted to marry,he would know,oh he had a few choice words of advice for me.
If he ever have reason to think I am or have messed around,he would whip my ass and leave..no divorce..once is enough for him. I looked at that fool,he said oh yes,you can tell your brothers/sisters,don't give a shit,I am not afraid of them,but they better be very afraid of him,I belong to him,get use to it.
stay tuned to be cont.