This story brings back a lot of memories,some I guess I had suppressed in the back of my mind...I think this is good therapy for me ...I was very young at the time of my mama's death....I remember the good times,believe me it was more good than bad...I had a very short and happy time with my mama....every holiday/birthday my daddy had,my mama would dress me up and hand me to him and tell him here is your present...Sis says when I was very small,mama would hand me to daddy buck-ass naked...he would just laugh until the tears roll down his face...The morning my mama left she told me to be a good baby for sis...I was disappointed,I went everywhere with mama,not this time,I think she knew she wasn't coming back,mama told sis to take care of her baby and tell me she will always love me and be with me always,I will never be along,my spiritual guide will always be there,teach me to open my heart,follow the signs that is laid out for me....I was so disappointed in not going with mama,I was trying to catch a chicken to wring it's head off....I heard my daddy call me,I went to see what he wanted,sis was crying...everyone was looking scared to death....my daddy looked so sad,he says come here baby,I have something to tell you...daddy took me in his arms and told me mama was not coming home,I asked why...daddy said mama 's angel carried her home to heaven ,I told him no mama would not leave me,she will be back to get me,I asked daddy where was Michael(sis hubby) daddy said he went with mama,I without a mama,Robert ,Michael Jr. and Nan without a daddy.....daddy said he understood now what mama was telling him..she left him a part of her(me) after the funeral,everyone was asking daddy what was he going to do...daddy said give him time he needed to think ...daddy had a franchise insurance company,my brothers worked with him, two brothers has retired,three still have the company going....Hey I am getting ahead of my self....I told daddy I wasn't going to talk until mama said I could...School started ,I wasn't speaking,not a word...daddy always had time for me,he tried to get me to speak,not even in school...I just knew mama was coming back and tell me when it was time...mama was close to nature,down with mother nature as she call it...sis says mama was a very spiritual person....she also says mama was trying to prepare us for her passing...it was a sad time for all,especially my daddy....wow I loved that old man...in the evening I would set outside listening to see if the wind would bring mama's butterfly kisses and word 's of joy...mama always told me sit quietly ,you could here the wind bringing you words of love from a love one who has pass over.mama was gone about a year,I was sitting on the porch one evening,I guess I dozed off...I jumped up and started hollering for daddy,I was running like the devil was on my tail...daddy was running to me tears rolling down his cheeks..I said mama said it was alright, she is happy and she will come after me when it is time...those was the first words I spoke in over a year...sis call everyone to tell them...my daddy said it was time to leave New Orleans,we carried mama with us...when my daddy passed on we laid him next to mama....I wasn't talking during that time ,I still got into a lot of crap....I carry flowers to mama/daddy...sometine I sit and tell them how my life is going....crazy ..huh....it makes me feel better . stay tuned...to be continue:
I think I have my own Nana and Brian...Gil and Nan...
ReplyDeleteGil agrees with you ,to let me tell my story my way..the more I write the better I will be...Write the way I feel...be myself...Thats some of the things he loves..I told my man I can't write unless my panties is off...He laughed and said Jeannie don't care if I am naked,she don't have to look at me.
(GIGGLES)
I'LL HAVE TO TRY THAT,writing with the panties off.maybe I'll get inspiration.
ReplyDeleteI loved your story.Imagine not talking for a year.Kids have their own way of showing pain.
ReplyDeleteDid you ever learn how the accident happened?
ReplyDeleteYes...Over grown crossing ..the engineer was drunk...no lights on train..people say he didn't blow the horn....you know my daddy sued their ass off....Isome time i feel a cool breeze ..and think its mama giving me a butterfly kiss...
ReplyDeleteIt's a credit to your Dad and family how they all pulled together and kept going.He must have been quite a guy.
ReplyDeleteI hope that man was charged with negligent homicide.
ReplyDeleteWe have a storm and tornado warning out,the weather is nasty,I leave a lot out,a lot comes back after I am finish,maybe I will write it down and let some one put it in book form for me,for my babies.My brother Chis says maybe all coulb be put together by some one....(GIGGLES)
ReplyDeleteYou have certainly kept her in your heart.It's good your dad lived until you grew up.At least you had him to support you and you had Sis.It would still be tough on a little girl.
ReplyDeleteYou had an interesting life,and the best is yet to come.YEs it would make a good book.
ReplyDeleteYep...he got 30 years jail time..daddy told the company the settlement better be good...daddy was a good father...Chris said daddy loved all of us...but mama had babies until she had him one that looked like her..sis say they had known I was daddy's special child...even if he didn't show it.
ReplyDeleteOf course you would be his special child.He could see his loved one in your eyes.At least she left him that.
ReplyDeleteIt's something I can give my babies,I was a bad little ass before my mama died,she said I was high spirited....I am trying to remember what the mid-wife said before we left N.O. she was a black lady ,they say was a seer..Nan called her the VooDoo woman..
ReplyDeleteAll the kids a lot of grown-ups was scared of her...she lived down the road from us,I would go there and just sit and watch her...she told daddy I was a old soul,whatever that means...
ReplyDeleteSome of those voodoo ladies are quite psychic from what I've heard.it would be very interesting to know what she said.
ReplyDeleteShe meant you have had many incarnations or previous lives.Maybe you were Cleopatra.I've heard she had green eyes.
ReplyDeleteis that tornado right in your area?
ReplyDeleteThis my first time here (GIGGLES) when I leave ,I will not be back...we have fucked up this old earth beyond fixing..hahaha
ReplyDeleteYou're right but when they find that new planet that's just like earth,don't you want to go there just to see how we fuck that one up?
ReplyDeleteI will tell as much as i can remember...a lot is coming back to me....I think she believe I was retarded..hahaha
ReplyDeleteNo I am going to stay with my Bears,this one will re-grow itself.
ReplyDeleteIf you never spoke,a lot of unperceptive people might think that.Little did she guess,the wheels were turning in that brain a mile a minute.
ReplyDeleteIf there's a bit of color in your background you may have had some powerful voodoo ladies in your own family history.
Yes the tornado is in our area,it might by pass us...they mostly hit the trailers parks...They say the Red River is raising...all the casino boats is on the river..there are 5.
ReplyDeleteWould the casino boats head for dock and get everyone ashore under these conditions or wait it out?
ReplyDeleteThey say my mama's grandfather was a big black buck...shit ain't no telling what I got in me...I know the men folks in daddy's family had a lot of maluttoes ,so a lot of them i see is passing,
ReplyDeleteThe boats never leave the docks,they are anchored down..
ReplyDeleteOh what a shame people don't get to see the big paddle wheels turning.
ReplyDeleteI just asked sis do she remember any thing ..she says yes..and the lady was name Hattie Mae Davies,they just called her Mrs.Hattie..a lot is coming back to her...
ReplyDeleteNope, the boats is connected to the hotels...Bossier is across the river,you would think it was one city.
ReplyDeleteThe beauty of having a lot of nationalities in your family tree is that you get the best attributes of all of them rolled into one person.
ReplyDeleteUnfortunately every once in a while you get someone with all the worst attributes rolled into one.there's one like that in every family.
You know ...you and I have seen a lot of bad times...we always see the good things in life..I remember mama telling me to always be the best I can...some people just finish what they were put to to faster and move on...keep my heart open so i can hear and see.
ReplyDeleteI bet Mrs Hattie has some great stories to tell.She has seen a few things in her day.
ReplyDeleteYour Mama was wise.Be the best you can be.There will still be people who disapprove of you,but they're not important.They can go f**k themselves.
ReplyDeleteI am going to ask sis about her,they are about the same age..I talked with her about 4/5 years ago....I think they moved here after Katrina/Rita storms.
ReplyDelete(GIGGLES) Do you think that why my man got after me...because all the nationatities roll up in me?He could just take his pick.haha I am going to ask him.
ReplyDeleteNew orleans will never be the same.I bet some people are still bitter towards Bush for the way he handled the chrisis.I've read that he had some beforehand knowledge that that the levees would not hold back the water.Why didn't he take some precautions?
ReplyDeleteI am very happy with my lot in life,I have did things,been places ..some people just dream about...didn't go much last year..just Miami..pregnant,we was on the go all time, Gil would call,say get Jill ready we are leaving .
ReplyDeleteI don't think history will look too kindly on Mr Bush.His father did a better job.I'll say one thing he took office in a very difficult time right before 9/11.He had to come on strong and look like a tough leader.
ReplyDeleteI guess Gil doesn't have to travel much anymore for his work.Do you prefer being more settled?
ReplyDeleteBush didn't care...N.O. was mostly poor blacks/cajuns ..he will pay for that...Brad Pitt is building houses ,putting up his own money.
ReplyDeleteThere's a Canadian guy down there also building houses.His name is Mike Holmes.He is a building contractor who has his own TV show He started out helping people who had been cheated by other contractors with shoddy or dangerous work and they made a show out of it.He decided to help out in N.O.Brad was a guest on the show.You can probably get the show down there.
ReplyDeleteYes I miss it...but I like staying put now...I am coming to canada...they have nice hotels...gil can speak enough french to get by.
ReplyDeleteYes we get it here..good guy..that's when I heard about Brad...everyone loves Mike Holmes..
ReplyDeleteHave you ever seen Brad in the flesh?
ReplyDelete(GIGGLES) French hahaha...I remember Vix and I was talking about Sammy's drawing...I told her Gil spoke english/itation/spanish fluently..enough french to get by..she told someone spoke them..hell you was teaching her english...I wonder how she is.
ReplyDeleteNo I never seen Brad...I miss a lot of them now since I don't go down reguler...dad sold his interests ..just on the board now until they can pay him out.
ReplyDeleteOne thing Vix has is a strong sense of survival.She can take care of herself,land on her feet.She'll come out of this stronger and frankly she was already a very strong person.
ReplyDeleteVix was a bully too.I knew that and still liked her but you could handle her better
ReplyDeleteI enjoyed the peoples more than i like the celeb. The celebs. mostly wanted you to think they was all that..I have met a lot of them...nothing hot about them..but you know that...
ReplyDeleteI'm just seeing on tv that there have been small earthquakes in Los Angles all day.I wonder if it is related to your bad weather.
ReplyDeleteI would go along with her until she went to far...Yvonne I told her o.k. but didn't go...the way they kelp tabs on her they would hear me coming...I was not going to let her turn this blog into DCR.He had I got stale to me..sometime i didn't have anything to say about him but the same old shit
ReplyDeleteI remember when you was telling me about the twins...she wanted you to stop and write her a poem..I told her i wanted to talk with you.when she got it ,she told me you was all mine...I was so mad i told her she kmew I was going to leave...I log off and e-mail her and told her if she pull that shit with me again I will kick her ass off the blog...I was plenty hot.
ReplyDeleteYou are so right about DC.It was hard to come up with something new to say about him because he is actually a very boring person.
ReplyDeleteIlooked him up because I like red haired men but all I learned was bad stuff about him,and he did the same things over and over.I hated his attitude towards women,But it got very stale.
Well I never knew you emailed her about that.I remember she was being a bully and it was annoying in the extreme.
ReplyDeleteThats what I don't understand..she really is a strong person in so many ways,,that why I don't unnderstand where dave fit in.
ReplyDeleteThe e-mail address I had when I sent her the NE paper abut Dave and Amine,was didderent than the one she sign up with...the one I had was hot- mail,the one she sign up here was G-Mail...
ReplyDeleteShe had a dream that he would accept her offer and she believed it.She could not take the rejection.SHe didn't understand how that could happen.It broke something in her.
ReplyDeleteThe different email addresses were part of her hiding her location.
ReplyDeleteGil says he don't think they will do to much to her ..a pat on hand ,a couple of pills..and turn her loose..we may never hear from her because she thinks she had us fooled...he don't think she had a clue that we knew all along.
ReplyDeleteGil is right.She didn't know we were on to her.She underestimated our intelligence and she thought she was much smarter than us.
ReplyDeleteThree times I typed an email to you to tell you who she was and I cancelled all of them.I thought you would be shocked or hurt or not believe me
you know when Vix posted about those cafe and using others internet sources...well a [erson there befriend her and turn her in,these people is turning up everywhere wanting 15 minutes of fame.
ReplyDeleteShe kept saying she was in San Diego as though that fooled anyone.
ReplyDeleteIt was so obvious from things she said that she was in Mexico.
If i didn't know I would have believed you...I knew you was a straight shooter.You was someone i want to know better...I knew there was things I could learn from you.All I had to do was open my heart....
ReplyDeleteThere was no other reason to turn her in except to get a little publicity.She wasn't dangerous to anyone.
ReplyDeleteI still get angry at the way she was harassed and attacked.
ReplyDeleteIt's good she is gone from there,it is rougher there now,all the killing ,so sad.Her friend wasn't much of a man...I know Gil is not perfect,he would never leave out by myself...
ReplyDeleteI do to...no one need to be treated that way...we never looked fora thank you or 15 minutes of fame for being her friend.They didn't get a thank you from Dave camp...now what ? You treat a person as they treat you,yes Vix got on my nerves,I will never turn on her Llike some one I know did their friend.
ReplyDeleteShe had so much good in her
ReplyDelete.I hope it hasn't been crushed out of her.She was coming around with us,returning to some kind of normalcy.
I haven't told Brian that she has been arrested.I never mentioned her again when he got angry about it.I made the mistake of telling him I knew who she was.
The only person to really get hurt in this mess is Vix's little girl,she is old enough to know her mom left her for a shit-head,and a dumb one at that.
ReplyDeleteYes,that little girl has been hurt by her mom and probably from all the howling on the internet by the loons,everyone knows about it where she lives.She could have been spared that.
ReplyDeleteNo need to tell Brian...she is gone ...Nan talks so much ,til Gil hears everything,he wasn't so keen on me talking to her so much,that one reaso I was on in the morning's mostly...until we got this one,he didn't know she was an author...haahaha
ReplyDeleteI understand their concerns but they did not know her like we did.She couldn't hurt us.
ReplyDeleteI laugh everytime Nan tells me there is nothing going on...One said the new show Castle is higher in the rating than dave..hahaha
ReplyDeleteGet some sleep honey .You'll have to prop your eyelids open with toothpicks in the morning.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad that Castle is doing better tnan CSIM.Maybe they will take that albatross of the air at last.
ReplyDeleteNope...They know her ,I still gets tickle when she said she likes butting heads with me...
ReplyDeleteI am going to pick sis brain about Mrs.hattie and she if i can find her.
ReplyDeleteO.K. sweetie I will say goodnite,everyone is sleepbut Gilly ,he hanging on his jugs...(GIGGLES)
ReplyDeleteHave a plenty sweet dreams ..see you tomorrow. NEE
I bet people went to Mrs Hattie for lots of potions.Love potions,get rid of pregnancy potions,hexes.
ReplyDeleteKiss Gilly for me..night
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